January 14, 2010

Kids are reading, I am waiting for laundry to finish I just read my last entry. I surprise myself, sometimes the words i write when i come back to them, it is as if my hand was guided by your spirit.
I cannot really pray for anymore than are on the last two pages,
Even before the "Notice of Battle"  God I just cannot deny your presence here. You have brought me here....
"The mouths of Kings will be shut, and they will listen"
You will like you promised "Rise up a standard against them"  you will see all the truth and you are guiding my hands and feet, my words i will speak.
My son is your son, My daughter is your daughter.
You will deliver us.  You tell me "Who ever wages a war against us they will fall"
Help me Lord to do right by you and to trust you for the outcome.
You have got us this far Lord and I know it is for a purpose YOU will save my children.
 In spite of my downfalls your words you gave e will not fail, and I know i will be driven by an unstoppable force, with all the power and strength you provide, with all my voice I will go forward knowing you are behind it all.

I will feel anxious and get tired , but my flesh will not rule over me because of the spirit you have given to me.  How come you have blessed me?  So much you give me and never turn you back from me
You put me right on track, even when I want to back slide in my flesh, you have not allowed it, because you are preparing the way to our Freedom.  True physical freedom  I am so excited Lord  for a new, real brand new nothing holding us back, start!
What will we do? I know i need to be sure I listen to you before I run ahead of myself. Of course a little fun for the kids and I?  some real fun, with no restraints , no worries, no wondering in the back of our minds when the other shoe will drop, wow? what will it really feel lke?  I know you will deliver us.  I believe Lord, all my trust has to be in you and you alone.
Help from places so unexpected??  I asked before court in my diary? Her name was Adriennne Rocko..
YOU sent her?! She looked me in the eyes and said " You know you know, what you know"
and right as we wait to be called into court she gave me her Bible.!!!!
The attorney letter forwarded from Bruce, all the help from above  even when I lost hope you would not let me go
Send me Lord.  I will go.
Thank you  I love you.